My Rock, My Mom

*When I just can't express how much I miss her...

Sometimes I catch myself
Thinking, "When I phone,
I can talk of this or that!"
Then remember, I'm alone.
She was always there
To answer my calls -
To listen to my "small talk"
Or when I climbed the walls.
At times, I didn't feel like talking
And somehow, she understood -
Didn't say she wished I'd call
Or make me feel like I should.
Now, I wish I would have
More times, to show I cared -
To say, just how important
Were, all those times we shared.
I could have shown my love
So much more than I did -
I never, did it enough
Even when I was a kid.
Now it's too late to do or say
All those things I wish I had -
No way to ease the pain inside
When my heart is sad.
She was my "anchor" to this life -
The "rock", that I clung to -
The place, where I could turn
When, nowhere else would do.
Now, the ravages of time
Have worn my "rock" away -
And all I have to cling to
Are memories of yesterday

Mom,I need you now, can't stand it anymore. I need someone to share all these bourdon. Only you who can really understand me, only you who really care about me.
I can't face all these problems by myself. Rasanya pengen bgt ada mama disini biar aku bisa cerita smua,biar bisa lega. I really need your advice so bad mom.mama slalu jadi pertimbangan utama dalam setiap keputusan yang kubuat, mama juga yang paling mengerti.
If only you were still here mom, aku gak akan pernah terjaga sampai pagi menanggung 'beban' seperti skarang.
Aku akan bisa tidur lebih cepat karna aku gak akan pny beban.
Aku akan selalu punya mama untuk berbagi dan menampung semua keluh kesahku. Yang akan mendengarkan setiap curhatku seriap malam sebelum tidur, saat dinner ataupun lunch time.
Beban ini terlalu berat utk kutanggung sendiri ma, dita butuh mama...
Saat2 seperti inilah yang selalu membuatku menangis karna aku tak sanggup lagi mengangkat beban ini sendiri dan dita butuh mama untuk dapat meringankan semua.
Mom, I need to talk to you, I need your advice...
I want you to be here mom...

remember you...

If We Never Make It Back
To What We Used To Be
I Hope You Know I Tried To Give You All Of Me
I Don’t Wanna Wake Up Tomorrow
If Our Memories Filled With Sorrow
I’d Rather Smile When I Remember You
If You Find Someone
That Can Love You Right
I Won’t Stand In Your Way
I Won’t Even Fight, No
I Won’t forget
I’ll Always Remember You